There is an old, old saying, we've all heard it many times. It goes, "Everything happens for a reason", and for the longest time, I just could not figrure out why. If everything happened for a reason, then how could you possibly explain, all the many, attrosities in life, that cause us so much pain? Like prejudous, war and hunger, domestic violence, and child abuse. I did'nt care how you'd try to explain it, there was really no excuse! Then one day something happened, something that has forever changed my life.

Something I thought for sure would fill my life with strife. My mother was taken from us suddenly, in a car accident she died. At first I said, "This makes no sense, if there is a reason, Spirit,tell me why?" All at once, on my shoulder, I felt a loving hand, and my mom said very clearly, "there is no need to panic, I'm in the Promised Land". "Sit down and relax my dear, for me there is nothing you can do, but our family and our friends will need you, and to them you must be true". Before this retched day happened my mother's health was ill, Enphazima was taking over her life, she tried to make the best of it, from she suffered from it still. "You know mom, you might want to try some oxogen to help you breath", I said. To that she answered, "If I had to drag one of thoses things around, I'd much rather be dead". That was one of the first things I thought of when my Mother sat me down.That in fact it was a gift, and as more time went by, there were other things I found. There were some things between us that was making it very hard for me to take charge of my life, and make my play, when the Dealer delt my cards These things she could not help me with, because from them she also would hide, The things she tried to do for me were'nt helping me at all, She always kept the secrets instead of letting me stand tall. I came to believe that even though my pain seemed so terribly hard to bare, It was easier to think she left this world quickly, than not being able to breath, and scared. I came to believe that there just might be some truth to that saying we were talking about. Because suddenly I saw the reason why she was'nt supposed to live her whole life out. She was not giving me the things I would need to make it in this life, and that was not going to ever change.She was much too good a person to die in so much pain, So, the One who is in charge decided the schedual to arrange. It has been five fleating years since from this world my wonderful mother has passed. And not one single day goes by that she herself will say.

"Everything happens for a reason, my child, and is'nt it better this way"? written for you mom, on the 5th anniversary (Aug.5,1994) of the day you taught me the most important lesson of my life. I love you, C.A.Thompson Feel free to put this anywhere you want. I want to pass her Spirit around. This poem was written with you in my mind. Everything does happen for a reason even if it takes a long time to find that reason. Search inside yourself, for that is where God is and He will always give to the right Reason. I love you Angel, Thank you for bringing this out of me. CAT